Last night i just wanted to have fun
To go out with my friends
I took my dad's car
I never taught he would find out
But I crashed in a wall
Man I'm dead
I guess it's no use
I'm screwing up every little thing i ever try to do
I was born to lose
yeah yeah yeah yeah

God must hate me
He cursed me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I'm breaking down and you can't save me
I'm stuck in hell
and I wanna go home

Last night I had to study for this test
I forgot man I'm dead
and now my brain is bursting out of my head
I can't think I can't breathe
Once again

So what in the world am I suppose to do?
I never did anything to you
so can't you find something else to do?

God must hate me
I wanna go home

Ha ha my life story...Well alot of shyt happened this week...but i am soo not goin into details, things were said things 

things werent said...shyt happens we have to get over it everyone makes mistakes...But it will all be better

Just never jump to conclusions...lol...Trust me on that one

Love ya lots

Abby

Oh yea one thing i realized this week....Dont judge a person but what they think....If u just talk u were learn alot more and it will be worth while

Trust me.......

hey hey....Sup Peeps.... I love how i got winterwarmin and again i am not suppose to enjoy ne thing that makes me happy cuz its like an unwritten rule that abby cant be happy.....So i heard ppl say i stuffed the box and told everyone to vote for me..um how about no...first of all i didnt want it badly enough to cheat and 2nd of all i only told my really good friends.....So yea for all u ppl that r tryin to make me feel like shyt its not workin....cuz i know i won and i know i didnt cheat either...so go and say what u wanna say cuz i know what i did and i didnt do ne thing wrong...and i am not gunna let it get to me like i let homecommin get to me so u just all might wanna shut up cuz i really dont care....Just cuz i am not POPULAR....doesnt mean i dont have ne friends and i think ppl need to realize tha popularity isnt everything and once u get out of highschool no ones gunna give a shyt if u were the most popular girl in our class or if u were homecommin queen or ne thing so just get over it....Its fun while it last but it isnt ne thing big,,,,But yea ne ways i actually am happy but confused whats new.....I am so lost about guys...I hung out with someone different someone i have talked to as friends for a while but there was just something about him..he is soo diff from ne one else i had ever dated but with him i had fun i laughed i smiled it was just cool..but the bad thing is i dont think he feels the same way..and i dont wanna run to him cuz i am sick of runnin and gettin hurt so i guess i will wait till he comes to me if he likes me but if he doesnt friends is cool...cuz i had alot of fun.....but yea ne ways...Other than that i am great my mom goes on her honeymoon in 2 days and winterwarmin is commin up and i have a pretty dress i am just happy.... but yea i got nothin else to say,,,,But i hope u all enjoy the snow day!!!!!!

love ya bunches

mucho hugs n kisses

Abbz

hey howdy ppl......Whats crackalackin...lol...well ne ways things have been ok lately...I am still tryin to figure out my head but it feels good..to not really like ne one enough to go out with them and just date around..i know there is that one person that cares about me alot, i dont know where that is goin, but i filled relieved knowin that i am not gettin pushed to do ne thing....I am feelin some feelins for some ppl but dont know where they are goin...Right now i just enjoy party and livin everyday to the fullest.... The boys won a game...yay...that makes me happy.....i have been sorting out my head lately....I like to hang with Abrah she gets my mind off of things.....Then i got that dumb job where i get paid nothin....but w/e my mom thinks i need to get my priorities straight cuz i told her that cheerleadin was more important than a job and if they scheduled me i wouldnt go cuz i dont work my ass off to  not letter cuz i have to work at f in country kitchen..can i get a hell naw..so yea i am tryin to find another job..so if ne one knows tell me please...Well ne ways yea..i dont know what else to write....I will chat with ya later!!!!!!

love ya mucho

Abby

It's Easier To Figure Out A Rubiks Cube, Than A Girl

People get angry because they get hurt....
the anger covers up the hurt!

*Not All Scars Show*
*Not All Wounds Heal*
*Sometimes You Can't Always See*
*The Pain Someone Feels*

*-*I uSeD tO hAvE a HaNdLe On LiFe, BuT tHeN iT bRoKe*-*

Okk..Well this is my first entry and i really wanna get things off my mind..Well today has sucked ass!!!! Lets see i am sooo tired and i am grumpy....i am sick of everything...i am sick of always havin a feelin that something isnt good...ok i told someone how i feel i wanna just get my mind straigt u know...see what else is out there...i was actually happy then of corse something fuckin changes...I just want to know how it feels to go to a dance alone for once...ok i like him i like him alot...but i feel i rushed into things...i dont want to feel that way at all i want to make sure we wuld really be good for each other and things wuld work out before i get hurt again...i am sooo fuckin sick of gettin hurt...but u know what no one seems to understand where i am commin from .... not only am i hurtin my self ne more but i am hurtin other ppl tooo...maybe i shuld just stop talkin to ppl...i am bringin other ppl i care about into my fucked up life and hurtin them now also...Amanda was right i am a self centered bitch who only cares about my feelings and my feelings only..maybe i shuld just go away and everyone can be happy and not worry about my problems i admit ihave....But what ever fuck it all i dont give a god damn ne more...i just want to go someone and cry and be alone...but no i am just considered a baby if i cry...oh ppl tell me all the time big deal everyone gets hurt...no trust me u havent been hurt unless u have been me....not just friends family and eevrything else....So go one and talk shyt i dont give a rats fuckin ass ne more!!!!!!!

love always

Abby